Ragtag Mama

Tuesday morning (since it is now Wednesday) I came home from work and the kids were up watching TV while waiting for breakfast that Grandpa was taking care of. I walked in the door and an Kendra yelled “MOMMY’S HOME! MOMMY’S HOME! MOMMY I MISSED YOU!” Yes she usually gets excited as I come home from work and runs to me for a great hug but not until this past morning has she ever said that she missed me.  The more I thought about the more heartbroken I was. She is used to spending time with me and over the past week she hasn’t had that time. Last week I was sick for a few days, unable to hold, kiss, or cuddle her (mostly for fear that she would catch the bug that I had). Once I recovered I needed to get things done around the house that hadn’t been done and finish the last of my Christmas shopping. There she again fell to the wayside. Not to mention that Ephriam had his therapy that I was trying to watch and take care of her but again she was not in Mommy’s spotlight. Today after I got up it was time for lunch and naps. After naps I had to finish up some school work, fix dinner, and then go to school. Still no time to cuddle and kiss her like she would like. Tomorrow however will be a different day. Tomorrow Kendra is going to do things WITH Mommy. Things that Mommy doesn’t usual allow her to do. Play with scissors, tape, and wrapping paper (have to finish wrapping gifts for our last Christmas celebration.) Mommy is then going to play babies, barbies, and color till it is time to fix lunch. Mommy is going to give her the time that she has been asking for and been so patient to have.

Kendra, Mommy misses you too baby. I want you to know that you are important and that the house work can wait for another day. Mommy also misses Ephriam too. She wouldn’t forget him either. You are precious to me baby. I know that going back to school has been rough on us but when it is over it will give us more time together. Mommy will be able to do things like class feild trips, bake sales, and other things. Mommy will be there for the years that you will remember the most and yet will be able to help provide us with the money we need to do it all. I am looking forward to a grand day with you tomorrow pumpkin. For now it is REALLY late and Mommy must shower and go to bed. You sleep tight yourself so that we can have a lot of fun.

Love,

Mommy

This week we are returning to a pretty normal routine. Today (Monday) went by pretty fast.  I did the normal house work, dishes, laundry, sweeping that I pretty much normally do on Monday but Kendra and I also made a short trip to the store to pick up a few things. Then we went to get Ephriam from school and take him to speech therapy. Ephriam did really well with his therapy and I am sure shortly will be making a huge speech spurt. He is talking singing and repeating more of what we say. He also did great on his 2 syllable words saying over half of them correctly. I could tell towards the end though that he was getting tired because he was slowing down. Next week should be better for him as we continue to have ‘normal’ weeks at home. Kendra did okay today on the potty. She seems to do great in the morning but will not go in the afternoon. Not quite sure what that is all about yet but we will get to the root of it soon. At least I can go half the day with out changing one child’s diaper.

I am looking forward to this weekend as we celebrate our last Christmas till Dec. 2009 with my family. It also looks like the kids will get to see their first movie in the movie theater. I will let you know how that goes. I am also hoping to get the camera out more at home so that I have pictures to post of what has been going on. Mostly for on the kid’s blog. I just wish that my husband would leave it upstairs so that it is handy (okay so it maybe upstairs but I don’t know that for sure either).

So I did well today with working with the kids and talking to them more about God. They got little booklets sent home with things to do this week so we started with them. Today was pray for a friend. So each of the kids picked a friend to pray for. Ephriam prayed for Nathan and Kendra for Ella. Then they got to color their picture in their book for the day. I am not sure what tomorrow is but  I am sure that we will find something to do with it too. I am hoping to be more arts and crafty too but hey we are just getting started.

Well I think that is all for now and I should return to do actual work but post more tonight after class.

So it is late Sunday night and I should be asleep. However I am not.  I am going to be decicated to bloging in 2009. So here I am, not sleeping but blogging. (Okay so I also procastinated on my English homework so that is the real reason for not sleeping.)

Today has been a good day. Kendra went pee on the potty 3/5 times that she was on it. This week will be a trial run for us because after this weekend we will return to a “normal” life (still not sure what normal is but at least a mostly predictable schedule). Tomorrow we are headed to the store to get “little girl” underware (aka Pull Ups) to see how she will do and as she stays dry in them we will them then move to big girl underware. I think that she will do fine once she understands what I want her to do. We will see though.

Also today I got to attend church. Last night I got to help out with the babies and this morning attended service. Since Chris attended church last night he served this morning and the kids got to learn the same things twice in their areas.

So here is what I learned at church:  The series is called One Life. Joe Boyd taught. I love when Joe talks, he really has a God given talent. Every time he makes me think and pushes me in a new direction. Anyway I learned that If I am ready to get better, As Jesus asked in John 5: 1-15, that I need to stop trying to be in charge and let God. I sin because I think I can do things on my own but really I can do nothing with out God. I want to love God with every piece of me. I want to follow Jesus and stay the same person all the time.  Like Joe, when I die I want to be known for loving Jesus. This is a hard task to do, although I take it as a growing with God challenge. I show in ALL my actions that I love Jesus. Joe then read Hebrews 12: 1-2 (this is Christopher’s focus verse of the year). Joe broke it down into 3 things 1.) To Lay aside our “weights” and “sins”. 2.) to Run with endurance 3.) Watch Jesus. This will help us to get better. The 5 areas that we will look at in the next 5 weeks are: Physical, Inner (Spiritual), Financial, Relational, and Emotional. I can’t wait to listen to next week sermon. I know that God has provide this series to Christopher and I to look at each area in our lives.

After church we ate lunch and I took a nap. I am still recovering from the bug that I had and hope that tomorrow brings more strenght back. After my nap I wrote one of my 2 papers that is due this week. I choose to write the longer one first instead of the shorter one.  Then we ate dinner and Chris and the kids’ headed to his parents for a little visit while I headed to Panera for coffee with Penny. I had a good time chatting with Penny and was glad that even though our time was shorter then usual I was still glad that we were able to meet.  I meet Chris and the kids at his parents for a short visit before heading home to bathe the kids and put them to bed. Then took a shower and wrote my shorter paper.  That leads me here. Blogging before sleeping.

Tomorrow Ephriam returns to school and normal therapy schedule. While I go back to a normal schedule at work and school. Hoping that a nap will be in order for the kids but Mondays are always iffy. I hope to post tomorrow night to let you know how things went. If not then probably in the wee hours of the morning the next day. However I am working at growing my blog and posting everyday. Will try to post to the kid’s blog again soon too.

FW

Okay so 2009 didn’t start off like I had hoped it would but who wishes to be putting their head in the toilet due to illness while the ball is dropping? Lucky for me my IT guy lives with me and was able to update my theme for the New Year (and that the old one has been up for 2 years now and needs to have a new look).

So my new look goes along with my word and verse for the year. (Thanks to Mandy and Alyssa for their insipration.)

My 2009 word is: Growth or Growing

My verse:  Ephesians 4: 15 “Speaking the truth in love, we will in all things grow up into him who is the head, that is, Christ.”

This year is going to be about Growth. Now that I have a good routine of Bible Reading a praying it is time I growth further in Christ. I hoping to grow more in outreach, serving, prayer time, ect. I want to grow closer to Christ and be more like him.I know that by having the good foundation that I have now that it will be easier to do and keeping to a good routine will be the best way to get this done. Although this is not always easy to do with 2 small children.

I also want to grow my children’s relationship with him.Now that I have feed myself a little bit I need to be more intentional in teaching my children. I am not sure how this is going to go yet but am looking into things. I thought that I would start with their papers that they get sent home from church. I haven’t been really good about reading them and doing more on what they are learning in church but know that I could do better. I know that through Chris and I that the kids are going to learn most of their lessons about Christ, because they are our first diciples. I am looking forward to hearing them talk more and pray more. Not just the little prayer at dinner that we have been saying. So I am open for ideas if you have any.

In the end of 2008 I started meeting with Penny to get to know her better. This year I hope that we will grow even closer in our relationship. I look forward to the Fridays that her and I get together for coffee and get to chat. I hope that God will continue to provide that time for us and to use one another to spur each other on. I know that after I meet with her so far that my heart just bust with joy. I have for many years now been asking God for a BFF and do to my patients (something I don’t always have) and persistance, God has provide me with one in the right time. I know that God is working on us and I am praying for more growth between us.

This year is also a year for educational growth as I continue on my mission to be become an RN. I know that I have started back to school at the end of 2008 but 2009 offers more knowledge. I learn new things all the time from the girls at work and try to soak up as much as I can. I can’t wait to get my feet wet in clinicals. I am also praying that durning this time that God puts a place of  nursing interest on my heart. I would love to stay and do Labor and Delivery but sometimes I don’t feel God calling me that way. I feel like God is calling me to heal hearts for him. Real broken human hearts. I am not sure though. I pray that through this time of my education that God places a light to my path.

Of course I continue to pray for Chris and I marriage that we may continue to grow together as one. May we be a team and work together in raising our children. May we pray and read together more often. I know that I pray for Chris all the time. This is his year of FOCUS. I will pray that he finds his focus and continues to grow.

One of the things that will also be growing this year will be the space in my house. Chris and I have both wanted to get the house organized and it may take us all year but I will find the floors, counters, and basement in my house. I am reaching the poing where if hte clutter grows any further I am going to loose my mind. So for a least an hour on Saturday and Sunday everyweek we will be working on getting thing into a proper home.

The one part of my family that I am hoping for no growth is in numbers. Yes I love Ephriam and Kendra but I am not ready for another baby in the house. I have a lot of other growing to get done before that can be done. Once my education is done, maybe. We will see how things go. I also know that my plans are not God’s plans and everything could change in an intstant.

So here is a year of Growth done with love for Christ.