Yes, I know it has been a month since I have posted. I didn’t really mean to take a break and not tell you about it. It just sort of happened. I have been spending my blog time reflecting and communicating with God. I have shared my thoughts and my feeling with my husband and now want to poor them out here. So here is where my mind has been since it has not been on blogging.
As most of you know I am school to be a nurse. Oh how I can’t wait till it is over, I have been waiting 10 years to finish this up. I have spent one night a week for almost a year now going to school. Starting mid Nov. it will be 2 nights to finish up the class that puts me on the clinical waiting list. They say then I will have 2 years to wait but I happen to over hear administrative people in the hallway saying how it goes by a lot faster due to people not saying they are leaving the nursing program or those who have stopped going to school. I don’t care how long the wait is, this time I am going to finish. When I am done God has bigger plans for me. I feel Him telling me this all the time.
A couple weeks ago on my way home from school I had it out with God. I am so mad that people are suffering all over the world. I hate that their are people who don’t have fresh water or food to eat. That babies are getting sold in to the sex trade, girls as young as my daughter who is 3, and the younger the better. I had it out with God how my heart hurt so much for these people. I feel that giving money is not enough for me. I know that yes there are ministries that help these people and we do give. We have a Compassion Child and we give money to the Luke 4 Challenge at church, and of course we prayer for these people. I my heart that is not enough. As I am driving with tears streaking down my face, God told me just wait one day you many not be on the front lines but you will physical help, just wait.
I feel like I am in holding pattern. Knowing what could be around the corner but having to wait to finish it. Each day has become a new adventure and becoming a nurse is not just for me. It is for the MILLIONS of people that I hope God will help me to touch and change. This journey is totally worth the wait.
So where have I been? Enjoying the wait. Spending time with my children and my family. Enjoying the smiles and the laughter. Soaking up the tears and putting on boo boo band aides. Spending HOURS doing Speech, Occupational, and Physical therapy. Just enjoying everyday making a little impact on my children who I hope one day will too have an impact on the world.
I can already see the compassion in Kendra as she helps the other kids out. She doesn’t like other kids to cry and helps them to not. Ephriam right now is his own happy little self. He doesn’t like it either when people are crying. You can see his helpless look on his face. He knows that you just need a good o’ hug.
For the next few days I will be playing a little catch up on here as to where we have been and then where we are headed. Please continue to pray for us as we WAIT that we enjoy it and savor this time now.