Ragtag Mama

The man I love.

Not sure where this picture is from but I like it. Maybe not his fav but I like it.

He has such a sweet smile and a laugh that is contagious.

He is fun loving and a great dad.

He loves God 1st.

He is a great listener.

He makes me feel graceful in my words when I talk to him, even when I am most likely not.

I am not sure what I would do with out him.

He supports my hopes and dream.

He is willing to sacrifice so that his family has the best.

Nope it isn’t our anniversary of any sort.

I just want everyone to know how much I love him.

I want my blog to automatically tweet, so I have put my fantastic husband to work because he knows about this kind of stuff.  This is a test post and hopefully it works. If this does work then when I publish this post it will automatically send a tweet out via my Twitter account letting all of my friends know that I have published a new post.

Here goes nothin.

This is not something that is new to me. Ever since becoming a mom I seem tired all the time. It got even worse when I switched to working night shift and then got pregnant with a second baby. It got better for a while while all I did was work. Now that I am working full time and going to school part time sleep seems to be something I long for. This week started out with me getting plenty of rest but the tide turned at the end of the week. 4 hours, 6 hours, or maybe 7 hours here and there. None of them all in  a row but on and off. I am beginning to feel the way I did when I had 2 babies and worked full time. I know that this too will only be for a season but honestly I like my sleep. I dislike that I am grouchy especially since I have such a limited time with my kids. I am fighting through it today so that they get some of the best of me. Tonight though I will get real sleep. I am praying for 10 hours but hey beggers can’t be choosers. I will take what I can get. Tomorrow I hope to feel more rested and willing to play games and cuddle with my kids. They need that and so do I. I am looking forward to only working on the weekend this week. This means 4 nights in a row of sleep and rest. By the time I go back to work I should be doing great. For now I need to get dressed and ready to go to church. I can’t wait to go to church. It always makes me feel refreshed and renewed. It is a good place to be.

Where do you find your strength?

FW

I have 2 weeks left in my first term of nursing school. So far I feel like I am doing very well.  Skills lab seems to be getting easier and theory I feel  like I am learning something in. I just passed my skills test on Tuesday over shots. I was glad to pass on the first try. I took my 3rd test in theory and I think that I will get either a low A or a high B. I won’t know till Monday. I will be glad to have a break and then change things up. I will have new instructors and classes. Then after that term is over I will be able to have a little break for the summer and be able to hang at home with the kids or heck even going out to new places with the kids.

This also means there will be lots of watching of LOST. Yes, I know that that show was over a LONG time ago but Christopher and I didn’t watch it when it is was on but we are enjoying streaming it over Netflix.  We might even get to watch a movie or 2 too. We will just play that by ear.

For now it is back to work, school, sleep, eat.

FW

Today is the official beginning of Lent. Most people give up something or try to do something extra for 40 days. I on the other hand will NOT be.

Why?

Well because I still feel like it is something that I am forced to do. I don’t have an open heart to it. I still feel it is one of those rules that you I HAD to do while I was growing up.

So this year I am asking God to clean my mind of past experiences so that next year come Ash Wednesday I will have an open heart and mind to make a self sacrifice. Something even maybe Christopher and I could do together. I do know that probably one day during this season I will fast.  I usually do and that is just for me and God. A time to reflect on his sacrifice. We will just see how it plays out.

I am proud though of my husband for getting over that hump and giving up something he really likes. I am glad that I can be mostly accountable for him too and ask him about it.

So how about you? Do you give anything up?

Or I at least I hope today is.

I still have a killer headache that just won’t go away but I am hoping that it will soon. It doesn’t matter how much I sleep or how quite it is. Nothing seems to help and the 800 mg of Mortin is just even for it to take the edge off. Tylenol has done nothing at all for it. Yesterday I hoped that a work out would help but it didn’t. Actually it made it worse.

The kids were really good all day except for Kendra wouldn’t keep her hands off her brother even when he said no. There was at least no fighting or crying.

I really enjoyed the change for church even if we did worship at the end. I love when Joe gets up there and tells stories. I don’t know anyone who is a better story teller then he is.  The very last song we sang was  “How He Loves Me” by Chris Tromlin. Right now it is one of my very favorites and I was a hot mess by the time it was over but I think that we should all be a hot mess by the time we get done worshiping our father.

Today I am going to play games, do more exercise with Wii, and finish up my school work for Tuesday. I have a lot of stuff due and I need to study for a test. Tonight Christopher and I are having dinner with friends and I hope that we get to have a good time.

Well it is time to play some games and then work out.

FW

Today I am a little grumpy.

Why?

Well it might be this headache that I have now had for almost 2 days or it might be thinking of all the school work that I have to do before Tuesday for school. It might in be the fact that Tuesday is going to be the longest school day for me.

My kids however have been mostly good today. Kendra had a little bit of a meltdown this morning but I think that was mostly that she needed to eat breakfast other wise they have been good.

I am not excited to hear that church is going to be different this week either. This usually means that they are  going to preach first and then we are going to sing. I don’t like this because I feel like when we sing first that I am more apt to be open to what is being said. Not to mention my coffee is cool enough to drink. Oh well, I guess that I will just have to deal. I am glad however that Chris and I are going together.  I like that get to sit next to him and look at him when something they say strike me.

I am thinking about working out with the Wii this morning to see if maybe it will help the headache or at least make me less grumpy.

Yesterday by the way would have been my Grandmother’s 71st birthday. I miss her a lot. I hated when I called my grandpa on Thursday and got the machine that it wasn’t her anymore. Although it had been hard to call knowing that her voice was still on the machine. Most days I want her to be here. I am sad that I won’t get to see her smile when I graduate from nursing school. Even though I know that she is with me it won’t be the same. I know that she will be proud of me.

Well alright. I need to get ready to work out. I need to see if it will kill this headache. I don’t think that it could make it worse at this point.

Hoping to get out of being grumpy too.

FW

Today I took my first psychomotor, written skills, and theory test. I failed my first attempted at my psychomotor. I failed at things I KNOW how to do. I can take a blood pressure and I can take an apical pulse listening to your heart with a stethoscope). However today I let my nerves get the best of me. I second guessed my counting on my apical pulse thinking that it was too fast. However had I kept counting the way I was I would have gotten in right. Then on my BP I was so worried about getting either the 1st or the 2nd reading right that I missed up one or the other both times.  So next Tuesday I have to go back at 0830 and try again. Next time I am going to nail it because I got the hard parts completely right no problems. I now know what to expect so we will keep on. I will get it right and won’t let my nerves get me. If not guess I will be starting all over again in fall. I will not fail out on my first attempt. I will get it right. After I took the written part of the test I was fine. I wasn’t even worried about my theory test. I nailed them both. I am sure that I passed and I am sure I won’t let my nerves get the best of me and will pass my psychomotor with flying colors. Plus now I am requried to have at least 30 minutes practice with the lab manager and 30 minutes with a student who has passed there psychomotor. It will be just fine.  Dear God I will not let the stress get to me. I will do. I will. With no doubts in my mind that I can’t.

FW

Well I think it is a great idea for kids to take turns, as in sharing, but this my kids taking turns getting into trouble is getting old fast.  Ephriam is usually a good kid that stays out of stuff that he isn’t suppose to be into. However, today is a different story, today he decided that it would be a great idea to get the bag of American cheese out and spread it on my living room floor and probably share with his sister. When I talk about bag of American cheese I mean we buy it at Sams in a huge block with 4 breakable  stack and he had almost a full 2 stacks.  The back half of the cheese because I freeze the other two and these were ones just recently pulled from the frig. Yes that is a whole lot of cheese. His sister didn’t rat him out either so she is just as guilty as he is because she knows they aren’t suppose to be in the frig with out asking first. So now not a week has gone by since the middle of January that someone hasn’t ruined or gotten into something that they shouldn’t have. I thought that maybe it was just that the kids needed some sunshine and fresh air but I am not thinking so. Kendra has been good this week and almost got a toy back but was found out of bed last night so lost that. Otherwise she has been a gem this week. Maybe it is because she got some individual attention or maybe it took all the way to taking her toys away to get that we aren’t messing around here. Ephriam is so much harder to talk to though because he really doesn’t get it. He knows that he got in trouble because Chris spanked him but when asked why he was in his room he couldn’t recall. Hopefully at some point he will be able to but for now we just have to keep on him to stay out of the frig. It might involve locks and gates but he will get the point. For now I am praying that Double Trouble stays out of the Trouble.

FW